— Anonymous (via blackbruise)
The last time I went across the country, I found myself sitting in the subway station underground bawling my eyes out. I had this unshakable feeling of sadness, guilt, and fear.
This time around, I’m across the world, I have my moments of doubt within myself and a bit of fear from not knowing where I am. But, I am certain that I have the strongest support and love from the people I care for the most. I can feel myself growing to love more and more everyday. Instead of fearing, I talk it out. Instead of being oblivious, I spend every night and opportunity in the late hours to prepare for the next day. While I still argue with my mother, I find peace during more moments and discover all of the past I never learned growing by her side until now. And there is someone I look forward to seeing so very much but I haven’t felt the need to rush.
It’s quite interesting what time does for me. I am thankful.
I haven’t been so frustrated in so long.
Today was finally the day I get to fly out to Copenhagen then to London for a two week trip I’ve planned for…for the past few months. From doing too much research on all the places I want to go to, to booking everything in advance so I knew where I’d be and where to go without wifi. But everything just kind of fell apart.
First, I’m frustrated with SAS airline. The part on the plane was obviously not going to be repaired in the 35 minutes till boarding and something should have been done and finalized without dragging on this ordeal for several hours. Also, promising to provide food, then hotel, and options for other flights should have been done more efficiently. I waited over 2 hours for a possibility to be on a flight to Heathrow that could have happened… but no.
Above all, I could have just paid a hundred dollars extra and I wouldn’t be in this ordeal at all. I’ve never seen or met any company who had no idea what’s going on and confidently express so much uncertainty. Questions like: What time will we be arriving, what connecting flights do you have, can you help us reschedule/book our connecting flights, where to pick up baggage, and so on were vaguely answered.
I’m honestly glad I just made the executive decision to go home. Thankful for my mother for bearing with me (and dear god, all the old people and the babies were suffering so much from this ordeal). Thankful for my brother for willing to pick us up and drop us off again even though our flight is now (maybe and not confirmed) at 8am. Thankful for all the friends and the boy for listening to me complain.
Do research, extra investments go a long way, breathe, be patient.